I know, I haven’t been very active in my blogging activity lately and there are personal reasons behind it. I just try my best to get my groove back but it’s not happening at the moment. I guess, I seriously need to take a vacation, to get away from the stuff that choke me, and just to recover from the losses.

It’s been a rollercoaster ride for me. I don’t know how long I will be in that ride but I know I will get out of it.  The holiday season is just making it worse, feelings wise. It’s a different holiday this time. Much as I push myself to be happy, and really be excited for the same holiday season that my mum loved, I just find it hard to do so. I feel very empty right now. I still need to go on a holiday and fly back home to be with my family there. Maybe, I need all the change of environment even for a short while; a time to see my parents’ resting places, and be with my family for support. I could use some tender hugs right now.

Well, I hope that when the year ends, I can finally let go and leave the pains behind. I don’t want to carry these heavy weight in my heart to 2017. My family deserves to see me happy. I deserve to be happy… I know my mum would understand that.

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