I am an emotional wreck today. Actually, I have been like this for the past few days especially nearing to my daughter’s flight back home today. It’s just so difficult to contain all these raging emotions inside especially when you are aware that your only daughter will be going back to the Philippines to pursue her tertiary education.
Some people may not understand how painful it is to let go of your child. I just hope people don’t judge me for wearing my heart on my sleeves. I think I don’t have to justify how sad it can be to see your daughter move back home, away from you, for a longer period of time. It’s different when you know your kid is just going on vacation because then, you’re perfectly fine because you know there’s a time limit to that. In my case, she will be studying there and flying back and forth every trimester break won’t be practical.
So yes, I am an emotional wreck right now. I can’t stop crying. I can’t stop worrying but most of all, I can’t stop missing my only child. I’m used to see her at home. I’m so used to our daily mom-daughter routine. I’ll definitely miss the many bickerings but most of all, I’ll miss the only daughter who makes me happy every single day of my life.
I wish I can turn back time. I wish I can correct all the mistakes and wrong decisions I have made so I didn’t have to let her study back home. I just have to trust the Lord that there’s a reason for everything. Come to think of it, she’ll be staying with my in-laws and I know she’ll be well-taken cared of. She’s also going to be in my alma mater and I am sure as the rising sun that she’ll be getting the best education we can provide her. I just hope it’s not as hard as this to be away from her…
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The curious little thing here wanted to drop by and mention: Don’t worry Tita, College life won’t last a lifetime, so think of it like she’s taking a long vacation off every few months, but still working hard for her future also to make you proud, despite any hardships that have gone to pass. As her rather clingy friend sticking for about 8-9 years, I’m also helping her from time to time (mostly through skype because of our inconvenient schedules, which is possibly going to be a norm if she needs some advice on how to work her way through art haha), so it’s a guarantee she’ll come back loud and proud for every plane ticket back C:
She’s in the Philippines but hey, she’s still here, still able to follow her passion even though it’s not that close by to your current home :3
TL;DR, your daughter’s going on a new adventure, be proud for what she discovers on the way, for she’ll be bearing treasures in return 😀
August 16, 2014 at 9:47 pmThanks Kim. It’s very nice of you to provide comfort and your reassuring words help. It’s just not easy to ease through day by day when you’re used to see her at home every single day. But hey, I’m so happy she’s going to follow her dreams and passion in life.
Thanks kiddo! Regards to your family!
August 23, 2014 at 12:14 am