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My Drawing Style

I have been reading a lot of books on how to draw for the past quarter of 2017. I have also been watching tutorials on how to draw simple characters.

I have been very busy finding my drawing style. It’s like finding a needle in a haystack. In my head, I know exactly what I want but really don’t know how to execute them.

I have tried doing kawaii drawings which my daughter is an expert of but I cannot seem to hold interest in knowing the fundamentals. I just can’t be bothered about the right anatomical measurements of my drawings. I guess, I am the kind of person who doesn’t want to conform to any rules when it comes to creativity. Shouldn’t creativity be free-flowing?

I am perky so I enjoy fun drawings with wobbly, wavy appendages (imagine Adventure Time!), and very whimsical stuff. So, after several tries of learning the basic of drawing shapes, following proportions (I still have to apply a little principle about that), and knowing a bit of perspective, I have finally found my drawing style – WHIMSICAL! It is very fitting because my Instagram handler is now @Iamwhimsyarts. Fits like a glove!

Here are some of my artworks over the years until I found the ONE.

I started off with drawing “chibi-like” characters that depict my personality. I am not too happy with the outcome. I keep comparing my work with other seasoned drawers like my daughter and of course, I keep telling myself that my work wasn’t really good enough. I didn’t settle with the style above so I figured, time to find another forte in drawing/sketching my character. And the more serious sketch below came last year.

I love breaking rules so I drew mine with long necks like giraffes. Hahaha!

Again, I wasn’t too happy with that serious sketch. I am still such a noob on this game. So, I moved on the find my real style until I drew this cute, chubby chibi like me.

I was happy for sometime until I wasn’t happy. I kept thinking of what makes me happy in sketching my own character? Do I like rigid lines? Do I follow proper proportions? Do I just let my creativity flow like a river? And so, these drawings below came to being this 2018. I kept thinking about how I enjoyed the drawings of The Adventure Time cartoon. The way they are not really very proportioned in their body measurements, the way their appendages seems to be long, lanky, and even wavy, the way their faces were drawn… They were like magnets to me.

I found my style, finally! I want it loose, carefree, and colorful because I love colors.Ā  I may get harsh criticism along the way but I’ll take them constructively as I still develop myself as a budding illustrator who doesn’t have any formal training, who just happens to love arts.

To check out my artworks, please follow me at my IG @iamwhimsyarts – https://www.instagram.com/iamwhimsyarts/

I hope and pray that one day, I will be able to see my whimsical drawings in books, magazines, other products, and probably, even in motion picture (no harm in daydreaming!!!). For now, let me enjoy my late blooming passion in watercolor, typography, drawing/sketching arts.

 

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January 27, 2018
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Clearing And Packing For The Move

I cannot recall the number of times we have moved places even when we were still in the Philippines. I thought I could count them in my hand but the truth is, I lost count already. What I don’t forget is the stress it brings me whenever we move.

I am getting to the point where I just want to establish permanent grounds now. I am seriously tired having to pack, clear stuff, move, then do it all over again. The process is driving me nuts!

I am in that stage again. Although this time, I am learning to detach myself from things we have accrued over the years of living here in the UAE. I am not even counting on the number of boxes we have sent back home, and the other ones we have kept in my mum and dad’s place, and oh, the ones too we have left in our in-laws. All in all, we have things here and there and I am getting tired of that. I just want to have a permanent place, one I can call home until my last breath.

Anyway, enough with the ranting and forgive me because I am just very tired. My back is aching terribly that I have to rest every hour. I have been clearing and packing in the living area since last night, slept for few hours and I am at it again. I wanted to throw 80% of our stuff, things I couldn’t remember we owned. I know I can sell them, and I have posted them online too. I am just not getting any calls or offers. I think, if nothing happens in my packing and clearing, those stuff will definitely go to the dumpsters.

I have yet to clear our bedroom. It is still in order, thank goodness. Again, I scouted our room and have seen so many things I haven’t touched for the last 12 months. Can I throw them too? Those are mostly my arts and crafts. I am just tired of it all. I mean, I know I have that compulsive disorder of buying anything artsy and crafty. Right now, my priorities have shifted. I prefer doing mostly digital stuff now, except for my watercolor and brush and hand lettering. I still have plenty of the craft supplies I bought in the US for my cards. I think my ship has sailed and may not go back to that art unless required. Any offers in buying all my craft stash? I have one luggage (small cabin stroller) filled with paper and fabric flowers, and lots, and lots of ribbons. Up for grabs, including the stroller hahaha.

Well, I will start clearing stuff in our room tomorrow after the guys from Takemyjunkuae.com comes to dismantle and dispose my 2 linen closets and 1 big and old TV stand. After that, I can use the space to arrange the boxes in order so they are not in the way.

I hope this move will be the 2nd to the last; 2nd in a sense that after this, we will be going home, where ever home will be. If it has to be back in the Philippines, then so be it.

The only consolation I have, in spite of the circumstances, is that, we are moving to a bigger flat which my husband and I have been praying for. And if luck would have it, we also got the flat that we joke about each time we pass by the building. We always see that particular flat with a nice and spacious balcony. I keep telling my hubby that how I wished we could move there one day. And guess what, the company offered the building for the staff. It used to be a residential building assigned for the flight and cabin crew. Now, it is for core grade staff and my husband was allocated one, the ONE.

I hope, my next post will be an update of the new place. I am excited and can’t wait to decorate the place. I just want to deal with the mess at hand for the interim.

Until then, tuh-tah for now.

 

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October 27, 2017
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Doing Things That Makes Me Happy

I have always believed that mantra. That is why I try my best to do things that makes me happy even if other people don’t understand why. I don’t have to make them understand but all I want is for people to have an open mind why others do the things that they do, especially when running after a dream.

(Photo not mine/credit to the owner)

 

I haven’t always have it easy. I have to work hard for something. I don’t get stuff easy in life. It is always a struggle. Sometimes, I honestly want to give up. However, I think about the reason why I have begun in the first place – it’s because, I had a dream, and I am still dreaming up to now.

Part of doing the things that makes me happy is also sacrificing some time spent for nonsense stuff like going to the malls, socializing, etc. I don’t want to shortchange my happiness by stealing few moments out of them. That is why, my weekends are always booked to the brim with activities that calms my nerves, quiets my mind, and soothes my soul.

Right now, I have been busy with many things like my arts, my blogging, and my entrepreneurial goal. I have some frustrations too but the impetus to succeed, and to enjoy life now keeps me going. I just want to chase my dreams while I can because tomorrow may be too late. If I can do it now, why not? So, I’ll be doing things that makes me happy. And if I flood my blogs, and my social media channels with stuff that feeds my soul, so be it. šŸ™‚

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July 24, 2017
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Taking the Opportunity

They said, “Opportunity knocks only once.” In my case, it had knocked many times before but I kept mum about opening the door. I am either scared or I just don’t have faith as big as a mountain. Either way, I have let many opportunities pass only to regret later in my life.

There are opportunities that I have gladly accepted but I stirred my boat wrongly. I didn’t give much thought about them and was half-heartedly committing only because they became more of an obligation than something I could enjoy with.

I even prayed for opportunities to come my way. I answered some but then again, I was not putting my effort. I was rushing. I was impatient. I wanted to see results right away.

This time, the opportunity came when I least expected it. My friend actually approached me to review the products she is offering because I am a blogger and I do product reviews as well. So I said yes. Then I asked questions about the products, she gave me information about them and next thing I know it, I am a part of her team. Yes. It was a lengthy conversation about beauty and skin care products that got me hooked and I am glad that I did.

The thing is, I am a very skeptical person. I am very analytical, and I must understand every detail of something before I can put my personal stamp on it. In this case, I have heard of the brand before. I was still young when I heard of it. And because then, the brand seemed so elusive and exclusive, I didn’t give much thought about it. Until I became a part of the same brand I tried avoiding. Again, I am glad I signed up. I am still learning the ropes because I am just 3 weeks old in the company but I know one day, I can become a leader here. I would love that!

You see, opportunities like this one comes rarely in your lifetime. You either let it pass or you grab it by the horns. I have let this pass before and it came back to me unexpectedly. I did pray for God’s guidance and providence to lead me to a good opportunity where I can see myself, my family, my friends, and my new found teammates grow. And if there’s one thing I have learned about this whole process is to take the opportunities that come your ways as blessings. Not everyone has been given that honor to respond to a calling, no matter what that is.

It’s too early to say what will happen. I am just being very hopeful and positive. I feel I deserve this break after what I have been through. I am also praying that I will continue to enjoy this new endeavor for a long, long time.

Thanks to Nu Skin for giving me something to hope for. I pray that all my dreams will come true with your help.

The road to success is still long, and far. But I know someday, I will surely get there.

 

 

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May 6, 2017
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My Christmas Wishlist for 2016

I always have a secret wishlist every Christmas, year after year. I never really tell anyone about them until now. I felt, I had to let them out and send them to the universe! Maybe Santa Claus or a generous sponsor will anonymously present me with any of the items I need (or maybe all! hahahaha!).

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(Artwork by Ā©Ria Cervantes/themommalogues.com)

Items:

  • iPad Pro
  • Apple pen
  • iMac
  • Calligraphy pen set
  • Tombow Dual Brush Pens

 

I need all of them actually for my “biz plan.” I have been diligently practising on my craft, learning online, reading books, and practising some more. I need to hone my skills in hand lettering, sketching, doodling, and watercolour art.

I want to be able to put up an e-commerce business by 2018-2019, before I retire from the corporate world. I want to be my own boss. I want to open up jobs for others and I want to work from home. And as early as now, I am paving my way to get there. It’s not easy but every victory is shrouded with thorns, right?

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And this will be my home office! šŸ™‚ (Photo credit: tifaq.com)

So yes, I need them. They are not “want” but “need.” Good luck to me!

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October 14, 2016
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Debut Is Coming Soon!

I’m a bit relieved that the planned “formal debut” party has been changed to a dinner/get-together of sorts because that is what the birthday girl is asking for. Money wise, it saved us a chunk and the logistics required to pull a formal debutante’s ball has been lessened to mere coordination with souvenir suppliers and venue.

I have been busy these past few days tying up loose ends in the planning. Well, practically, everything is already set. I’ve made the e-invites and sent them out to close family and friends of my daughter. I have prepared the souvenirs for her close friends and other guests. There’s actually 2 kinds of souvenirs. I will just post them when the party is over. My daughter’s dress is just a simple cocktail dress we bought sometime back but never really worn. The venue has been paid (I think). My husband is in charge of the finances so I’m not sure about the venue but all in all, everything is taken cared of. W’ere just waiting for February so my hubby and I can board the plane and head home.

I have been thinking if my daughter really wanted a small gathering or she’s just being considerate of all the expenses we have in the family. Whatever the case is for her change of mind (and heart), I hope it’s nothing because she wants to sacrifice the “money” part just so we don’t worry much on the finances.

At any rate, the birthday will be simple but I want her to enjoy and have fun with her close pals. It’s nothing like the grand ballroom type of debut we initially planned for her. But if she’s happy with a small event to commemorate her “being introduced to the society as an adult” then her wish is our command.

We’ll definitely make up for it on her graduation. I have already set the plan and will save up for that. I even told my husband that we’ll throw our daughter a grand “congratulatory ball” to celebrate the completion of her studies then we will travel the US and Europe for a month. I am planning to go on leave without pay to make that happen. So, I practically have (barely) 2 years to save for that! šŸ˜‰ Bring it on!

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January 23, 2016
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Happy New Year! Happy New ME!

Well, I bid 2015 a bitter-sweet good bye. It’s time to let go of the past and move on…

I remember entering 2015 with hope and positivity. I am not sure what happened along the way when things got a little shaky and all I could remember was feeling rueful for many, many mistakes and decisions I have made in the past that weren’t favourable to what I wanted to achieve.

I remember towards the middle part of 2015 being extremely sad to the point of losing hope in many things. I didn’t get the promotion I wanted (this was early 2015). I got by-passed in many undertakings in our department. I had to deal with the financial pressure of providing for my family back home. I had to scour the web for paid tasks. I had severed ties with some people (well, to my defence, it was a good decision to purge my life of negative people wearing me down) in my circle (both in the office and personal). My mom was in ICU for more than a week. My brother had personal problems. There were just too many to deal with in one given time.

I clammed more. I went out less. I communicated seldom. I practically went almost hermitical because I preferred to be alone and silent inĀ those trying months were my methods of coping and dealing with personal issues I couldn’t share with anyone. I was also missing my daughter so much whom I have shared my inner thoughts and feelings with. I always tellĀ my sentiments to her and even if I knew those words fell in deaf ears at times, I knew she was just right there to listen when she wanted to. But since she went back to the Philippines for her collegiate studies, I was left most part of the days alone with my diva dog. I am pretty sure my husband didn’t even know what I was going through. And to top it all, I think I entered the “silent passage” of menopausal too. The raging hormones are just crazy, even to this day. I was confused. I was lonely. I was bitter. I was sad. But most of all, I felt I was lost.

And then, to while away my time at home after office hours, I opened up my Etsy store which didn’t make much sales except for one. Although it was too soon to close it (I opened only for a month), I wasn’t ready to pay for the monthly fees when there wasn’t much sales coming. I had to fold soon before I incur losses. So, another one of my dreamsĀ bit the dust.

Then the later part of 2015 got me thinking. What was I sad about? My failures? My inadequacies? My financial quagmires? The elusive promotion at work? The lack of family support and close friends? What was I really sad about? Then I had to do some soul searching. I finally realised, I wasn’t focusing on the better parts of what had happened in 2015. I was just a one-track minded girl who wallowed on the pains and was ungrateful.

So, forward to 2016… I left 2015 right were it should be – in the past. I have learned to let go of some things that I pursued that were perhaps not meant to be mine, for example, the career growth. I stopped applying for promotions because I guess, my health is more important that having extra thousands of dirhams added in my bank account. I think, God is telling me to just take good care of my health first and the rest will just fall into place. Now, I will follow HIM. I know His plans are better than mine. So, even if I am one to believe in never, ever giving up on your dreams, sometimes, letting them go for the better good is something I will be willing to compromise with. I am happier now with that decision. There’s no pressure in climbing the corporate ladder. I think I am just tired doing that. I have better things to do with my personal life and that is where I will focus my attention to.

I learned to accept my individuality. I no longer want to please people. If they don’t like me, so be it.Ā I am not going to deal with hypocrites because it’s not worth my time and effort. I have people around me who deserve my attention more than those simpletons do. So, I am moving on whether they like me or not.

Now, I am going to focus more on how to earn extra money with my blogs. I have been a bit of a slacker last year with my blogs. I didn’t have the energy at all to post regularly. I had missed some paid tasks which had never happened in the past years but 2015 was very different. I was really very sad for some time. I had to snap out of it.

So, this 2016, I will focus more on what are the essentials in my life: my family, my health, my close friends, my pet, my blogging activities, and my passion to create handmade crafts. And if you will notice, I have removed the career out of the equation. I think and feel I am more at peace now ever since I have let go of my career advancement goals. I felt not being pressured to accept more responsibilities when I already have so much on my plate. I have learned to let go and move one.

This year, it is all about empowerment, accepting my flaws, learning to appreciate even the littlest of things, expressing my gratitude more, complaining less, laughing harder, crying lesser, and loving more. Also, if the budget allows, I will travel more.

Right now, I just don’t care about the otherĀ people sucking my energy and might. I will just focus moreĀ on what is more beautiful and precious.

Life’s too short to wallow in regrets and bitterness. This is something I have realised. No matter how hard I try, if it wasn’t meant to be then it wasn’t meant to be. I have stopped pushing for the plans I have made for myself but have learned to follow what He has made for me. I don’t normally discern what God always tell but in the grand scheme of things, I know those plans will be presented to me in His perfect time.

For now, it’s just the 3rd day of the new year and I still have 362 blank pages to fill, hopefully with good thoughts and life’s experience. So, Happy New Year! Happy New Me!

 

Photo credit: Briantracy.com

Photo credit: Briantracy.com

 

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January 3, 2016
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